Happy Holidays !!!

To all my friends!!!

( to whom it may be concerned )  

Sorry for not keeping you posted ,

especially with good news. 

I was and I am sick and tired of giving people bad news.

and I am sure that you all are fed up with it , too.

As of Now, there is no way of  curing my disease,  and I have tried enough surgeries with no avail .

So I have given up giving this and giving that a shot, that is,

I gave up trying so many New surgeries  since last summer. 

but this is something new, and good news .

After keep doing ” 60-seconds-tap”  for about 60 days,

it just occur to me, 

”why don’t I start tap dancing , if I feel like it?

”

Since my condition is Not getting better, and I was just sitting down, feeling bad , physically and mentally ,and was agitated and disappointed with myself ,

So, it just occur to me, why don’t I do what I want to do, while I was at it ?

it was Not the matter of ” whether I can or not” , but ” whether I want it  or not ”

and with a help of my family and my fellow tap dancer (PORI)and good band members,

A)  did a ” one-week-gig ” in August  

it was OK. more like I barely survived it with help of PORI.

B) thought I might as well do my own gig .

did 2 shows of my own, totally supported by good friends( good band and PORI )

It felt good to be back !!!  

Felt Good  to be back on my feet .

though I can’t work constantly , because my condition is pretty unstable, it was good to be back , and it was good to see people smiling as I dance.

then, there is another issue , 

ever since I had a brain surgery , my right leg is numb.

don’t ask me why, because I don’t know and I am not sure if I ever want to know why, and its getting worse and worse.

I guess I just want to deal with what I have and what I can,  ignoring what I don’t have and what I can’t do.

Right now, I am concentrating on what I can do now,

I can only promise what I can do now, or what I can do next month, (Dare not make any further promise , because I don’t trust myself )

but those were a good part of my life this year, ( good news of the year )that I had a good time with my band surrounded by good audience ( good friends ).

I am booking myself for Jan, Feb, March next year ,now. 

and

Happy Holidays to YOU !!!!   
XoXo  Rhythm K.