To all my friends!!!
( to whom it may be concerned )
Sorry for not keeping you posted ,
especially with good news.
I was and I am sick and tired of giving people bad news.
and I am sure that you all are fed up with it , too.
As of Now, there is no way of curing my disease, and I have tried enough surgeries with no avail .
So I have given up giving this and giving that a shot, that is,
I gave up trying so many New surgeries since last summer.
but this is something new, and good news .
After keep doing ” 60-seconds-tap” for about 60 days,
it just occur to me,
”why don’t I start tap dancing , if I feel like it?
Since my condition is Not getting better, and I was just sitting down, feeling bad , physically and mentally ,and was agitated and disappointed with myself ,
So, it just occur to me, why don’t I do what I want to do, while I was at it ?
it was Not the matter of ” whether I can or not” , but ” whether I want it or not ”
and with a help of my family and my fellow tap dancer (PORI)and good band members,
A) did a ” one-week-gig ” in August
it was OK. more like I barely survived it with help of PORI.
B) thought I might as well do my own gig .
did 2 shows of my own, totally supported by good friends( good band and PORI )
It felt good to be back !!!
Felt Good to be back on my feet .
though I can’t work constantly , because my condition is pretty unstable, it was good to be back , and it was good to see people smiling as I dance.
then, there is another issue ,
ever since I had a brain surgery , my right leg is numb.
don’t ask me why, because I don’t know and I am not sure if I ever want to know why, and its getting worse and worse.
I guess I just want to deal with what I have and what I can, ignoring what I don’t have and what I can’t do.
Right now, I am concentrating on what I can do now,
I can only promise what I can do now, or what I can do next month, (Dare not make any further promise , because I don’t trust myself )
but those were a good part of my life this year, ( good news of the year )that I had a good time with my band surrounded by good audience ( good friends ).
I am booking myself for Jan, Feb, March next year ,now.
Happy Holidays to YOU !!!!
XoXo Rhythm K.