Happy New Year to YOU, and to YOUR Family !!!!!  

I am so sorry that  I didn’t write nor return any greetings the end of last year. 

( I was so sick with food poison  ←　Silly  (lol )

I just wanted to let you know that I have canceled a surgery scheduled on the 25th of January  yesterday .

I am seeing a surgeon who would not suggest any more surgery to me, ( something new)

According to the surgeon (Dr) , I had done more than enough surgeries and not getting the results at all, that unless the outcome of the surgery is 100% trustworthy , he would not suggest any.

As of today, it is difficult to say there is a surgery which would cure/ lessen/ reduce my pain & twitching of the eyes, and there is no surgery which guarantees to keep my eyes open.

( at least I have tried several , and cut many places with no appeal. as you might as well know of)

I have watching my eyes closely, for the last couple of months. 

( well, it’s hard not to, because they are constantly annoying, and my eyes are barely open )

and found out

A) Only my Left eye is Twitching/ Trembling / Blinking

B) When I Dug my nails deep inside my skins around the left eye to stop the blinking ,  my right eye opens easily .

C) and my face is ’’ One-side-dominates-both-sides ” 

( I can’t wink, because if one-side of my face moves the other side moves with it,  It’s not very rare, and it’s not a disease )

D) So, I found that the left eye is disturbing opening my right eye. 

So I suggested the Dr, why don’t we try the Botox Only around my Left, to see what happens?

the Dr was skeptical, because it’s not usual, but I had done the common surgeries for dystonia with NO appeal,  so he said why not.

the result was this

if the left eye stops blinking , my right eye opens easily 

Now the Problem is my right eye . 

 why ? 

A)  in July (last year) the other Dr, diagnosed my eyes as ” dystonia ” ( both eyes)

B)  His one and only speciality is ” Muller muscles ”  

C)  He did the surgeries to lessen the thick Muller muscles to stop the eyes from blinking/ twitching etc  ( and did it Twice !!) (and ready & eager to do the third one !!!  No, Thanks !!!! )

D)  My Dr (now), tried the eye-drop to strengthen the Muller muscles on my right eye, to see if the Muller is too weak to open my right eye.

the answer was ”Yes,” as soon as he gave me the eye-drop on my right eye, it Flew open like a magic . 

after the botox around left eye (stopped blinking )
and after the eye-drop on the right , ( right flew open )

and easily were able to keep them open.
( if the left doesn't move , that is)

〜　What Now ? 〜　　

A)  cancel the surgery

B)  keep trying the botox around the left eye, ( to see what’s best)

C) Try figure out, how to recover the right eye’s Muller strength

( you need the Muller muscles to open your eyes )

Anyway, I think I’ll try my best to keep myself away from the hospitals and surgeries, ( because it has been way too much )

and Try to be healthier than last year,

and Try to be more positive than last year.

and Try to be Happier than last year,

that’s the best I could now.

and I wish YOU a Very Happy New Year . 

XOXOXO

Rhythm K.